The schedule today is rather wacky. To start off I will go into work around ten in the morning and be at the gym by seven in the morning. All did go according to plan and I even had a good workout. Whenever I drastically need to make a change in when I arrive at the gym I get concerned that my workout will be crap but that was not the case.

I got to work at ten and my day was pretty darn good. After work is a company outing. I'm invited to go bowling for two hours with management and Supervisors. To anyone else this wouldn't be a big deal for me it's monumental. For me it reads like a misfit done good story. The only problem is I put too much stress on myself. We are slated to leave for the alley at around five thirty. By 4:00 I was feeling social anxiety. So much so that I started to get some hives on my arms. I'm a very outgoing person but there's another social misfit side of me that can come out too. I'm not afraid of saying or doing anything wrong I'll just have trouble diving into the situation and not allowing myself to have fun. I guess a better way to put it is I'll internally isolate myself. This is so not healthy.

Everyone, including myself had a great time bowling. I got to spend a couple of hours with some really wonderful people. The problem I had was I never felt like I was able to let go. Even my bowling started off with two gutter balls because of anxiety.

In the end I had a great time but I saddled myself with wondering how other people were perceiving me. Of course I know that they were not looking at me any different. It's all in my head.

I guess I have some issues?

I got home around 8:45 and then myself and slave barb watched some shows and went to bed.